The God Without Trust: A Lived Experience of Doubt, a Conditioned Brain, and the Possibility of Reclaiming a Conscious Relationship with the Transcendent

This article examines a deeply personal experience of doubt toward God—rooted not in denial, but in the inner struggle with conditioned neural patterns, upbringing, and cultural-religious conditioning. The author distinguishes consciousness from mere brain activity, and argues that sincere doubt can serve as a gateway to a more authentic relationship with the divine. God is understood not as an adjudicating or rewarding entity, but as a presence free from judgment and independent of belief. Remaining faithful to the inner experience, the article engages with neuroscience and spiritual psychology to propose a redefinition of the human-divine relationship within individual and collective psychological contexts. "Scientific name: Ramin Bidari. Legal name: Ramin Bidarsefidi."